Hurt, But Silent.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Haysus Crap

Haysus Crap, I am officially a victim of harrassment.
Okay, so yesterday after the trip to the airport i went home by bus from Aljunied. Met this sec2 guy who was part of the bunch that bullied me when i had to patrol. He was being nice and all, and he was like, "walao, i seen u six times already this week" which wasn't very much to me cos we DO go to the same school. makes sense aye.
Then we talked a while about nothing at all, and he asked for my number. WHICH I STUPIDLY GAVE TO HIM. Then i went home and he texted me. asking if i have a boyfriend. i asked why, and he said "cuz i like you". THAT'S DISGUSTING. lol i mean, it isn't disgusting, but he is disgusting. and then he starts BEGGING. like, seriously. calling me dozens of times and texting me all this crap about him and stuff and he was really really annoying. I was being so so nice at first by telling him the reason i dont want to be his girlfriend is because i dont want a boyfriend (which isn't true, but he doesnt know) and that my first priority is studying. but he just didn't get it---im rejecting him sooo obviously in a nice way, but he does not get it!!!!!
so now im getting frequent text msgs that im not bothering to reply to because i always get the same thing back. what the hell.

Never again will i trust my instincts to give numbers out. EVER.

Muackers,PrissL.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

BLOODY UNFAIR

Dude, I just remembered. I really really want to vent my anger out again.

Okay, so on friday we had the usual maths lesson with Johney Joseph, right? And it was like, so typical of a lesson- people stoning, talking, whatever. I belonged to the stoning category.
Okay, so i was sitting behind JingYi and Joshua, and they were talking. The Joseph rudely interrupted the scene, like he skipped a cue. It went vaguely like this:
"Priscilla, stop talking!"
(this was when i got confused, like he was mentally ill, because i really was not talking.)
"I'm not talking!!"
"Don't give me that shit" (ok, he didn't say that but he sooo meant it)
"But I really wasn't talking!!"
*then he said something about not arguing back, and for me to sit properly. so i did*
BUT NO, HE WASN'T FINISHED YET.
"Don't give me that look!!!"
(wtf. So he expects me to smile at him when he wrongly accuses me of talking. logical.)
"What look??? I'm not giving you a look!!" (i was tempted to say-"this is my face" but thought better of it)
*Then he says something about me changing when i joined F3-5*
Okay, so by this time i was FUMING with anger.
*Then he says that he'd tell mrs Lian about this and will take away my prefectorial status.*

Something to note here- when i get really really mad, i cry. it's the way my body works. So im about to cry....right about....HERE. So JY turns around to say, "don't cry" but before she could even do that. Joseph goes:

"Don't talk to her! Nobody talk to her!!" (WHAT THE ****)

honestly. i don't understand this huge prejudice against me. what the hell was i supposed to do or say? his lessons ARE boring. he's a CRAP teacher. nobody LISTENS to him. why the hell should i? because im a prefect? well screw that, im throwing my tie against the wall. because if i lose it, i'd really be knee deep in shit.

BLOODY UNFAIR.

Muackers,PrissL.

Scrutinizing myself

Hmm...well this is my first time blogging, and i said very clearly to everyone who commented on the nonexistence of an online blog in my life that i would never blog, because it seemed like such a stupid idea to me. I think it still is, but there really isn't anything i have better to do at the moment--blogs just seemed so uh pointless? But never mind, i have one now so scrutinizing my actions won't really help anyone.
Yu Yi left this morning, and she wrote all the girls a letter in chinese, and i had such a bloody hard time squinting at the characters like anything, and i didn't have the heart to ask someone else to help me read it because they were all crying at their own. When i finally managed to ask JingYi to translate some words that were seriously...whatever, i started crying too. She's just so sweet, that chick. Always thinking about others. I'll really miss her.
Then I felt seriously guilty when she was almost about to leave, because i was crying quite a bit, though not all for her. I was reminded of how i left my friends back at Uplands and how they all cried for me. And i didn't really cry back then. I miss them so much, and I just want to go back home. Everything was there- my past, present and future. My friends, teachers and dogs (lol).
I think this is pretty lengthy for a first post I'm quite proud really.

Muackers,PrissL.