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PrissL.
29.04.92
Expresses Her Feelings Through Tears And Laughter.
Really, Not Your Average Girl.
Always Chooses To Stay.
More Emo Than Expressed.
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Wednesday, October 31, 2007
:)

Sometimes it's okay to be childish.
Children are the happiest people I have even encountered.
Their naive smiles and twinkling eyes.
Their blasting energy and animated laughter.
Their simple minds.



Such simple minded things inspire such admiration in us.





As we grow older, we complicate things for ourselves.
As our knowledge broadens, we maturate our perception of things.
We cultivate opinions and develop tastes.
We start to over-think things, immerse in our own self-worry;
Things that are simple just aren't so simple anymore.
When we were young, our perception for love may be maternally.
We expressed ourselves openly and candidly, unafraid of any impossible consequences.
We had a fabulous time together, and we needn't think about anything else but ourselves.
Preoccupied in our own little, elementary world, our age as an excuse for our candid behaviour.





Comfortable, these little things just cause us to lust after a simple life.








Now, even a little concern for the opposite sex is taunted at.
A little hug, pat on the back or even a word of concern.
Provoking, teasing, pestering--we behave worse than little children.
To resort to this nasty humour and childish behaviour complicates our lives.
People are afraid to express themselves the way they should never have hesitated to in the first place.
People are paranoid of taunts, being shunted away, rejected.


Teenagers are more vulnerable to loneliness than at any other age. We hurt, we suffer, from a monster named 'Loneliness'.






Why can't we put aside our differences, may it be age, gender or race?
We have sex education, and now we are being taunted in our relationships.
We learn about racism, and now we are taunting others for their race.
We learn about someone else's involvement in a relationship with an older person and we taunt them for having such feelings.
Such nasty, childish humour. Such atrocious behaviour.
If only we can be children once more, to bathe in their naivety and happiness.
If only we could simplify matters.
If only we could express ourselves without fear of exacerbating our lives.
Only then, will we truly be open and cheerful. With others, and yourselves.
Learn from this, my dears. Mature in such a way as to not make nasty jokes.

Instead, we could turn to this to express our humour!
Muackers,PrissL.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Blabberness.

I've been feeling rather different lately, and found that I could express myself best with these pictures. Credits to her.


Singapore. The busy life. The crowded places. The street glam. The ghetto maniacs. The raging weather. The tight schedules. The overwhelming fatigue. The fast pace. The quickening heartbeat. The deceiving looks. The loud whispers. The hypocritical personalities. The blasting music. The fast breathing. The sweaty hands. The false images. The wrong messages. The hastening footsteps. The soporific pretence.

The tremors of city life.


I want to unwind, get rid of all the residue of the street smoke. I'm exhausted with the quickened pace of Singapore. It'll be music and isolation, away from this busy world. And
then, hopefully, I'll be truly happy.

Muackers,PrissL.

Monday, October 29, 2007
lub lub.




Muackers,PrissL.

Reach out.


"You can't force love,
you just have to reach out there,
&& hope for the best."

"Isn't it better to cling to the dream of what could've been,
than to ruin everything with reality?"
Muackers,PrissL.

Sunday, October 28, 2007
...


"You're single. Make the best of it. It doesn't mean you're not good enough for anyone, it means no one is good enough for you."




If only I had so much confidence.
Muackers,PrissL.

:)

Although everyone says that being comfortable in your own shoes is most important,Being comfortable without your shoes is best.
Muackers,PrissL.

Friday, October 26, 2007
Angst?

Bloody hell.
Right now, I'm here to complain about the atrocious weather.
So, I hate the weather.
It has been so hot, for so long, it's crazy.
Temperature's been like, a hundred degrees, and for people like me,
People who have been emotionally forced to attach themselves permanently to a ball twice a week for four hours,
Just aren't happy.
Not only is it like an oven out there, it's also uber bright, like God's been descending since the start of noon till evening.
And once again, people like me, people who absolutely detest feeling hot and bothered,
Just aren't happy.
People like me, people who have to walk a distance to get to someplace, have to be exposed under the uber burning sun, get hot and sweaty and uber bothered.
Even now, at 7.12pm, it's stifling in the house. I can't believe this.
It's like someone covered the entire building with a sock.
You would have thought, after all this hotness in the morning and afternoon, that someone would have some mercy and give us some coolness.
Nope, it ain't possible, the sun's somewhere behind all that darkness, burning it's uber hotness upon poor sufferers like us.
And I know, that after all this, the only solution to end my irritating problem with the quick rise of temperature in my days is to actually let the air-con operate.
Oh what a solution. How simple.
But hang on, it ain't so simple when your monster of a mother takes all that happiness in finding a solution from you.
She ain't gonna let it happen, mann.
I'm going to be hot and bothered for a very long time.
Well, until 9pm anyway.
Muackers,PrissL.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Linger.


I want that one boy...

Who doesn't mind if I eat more than him
Who listens to all my problems && fears
Who doesn't mind my sarcasm
Who sings along to all my favourite songs with me
Who will talk to me about anything && everything
Who is never too shy to hold my hand or hug me
Who knows I act crazy and weird sometimes but still loves me
Who laughs at my stupid jokes then tells me they're stupid
I want the boy who will hold me tight and whisper...
"I Love You."




Muackers,PrissL.

Scrumptious.

"Everything that felt so right, is wrong."

Had a really weird feeling most of today, it was like a mix between dread and misery. Vair weird.

"You're my one in six billion."

Netball was crap, as usual. Felt especially tired today, even before the training. I guess I haven't been sleeping right.

"I can't explain this feeling."

Came home only to fall asleep and get a kink in my neck that's still here, now.

"You're the one that makes me draw them stupid little hearts."

Aie, met Gen today at the back gate, mais it was locked. So we had to talk with the gate between us. How sad.

"The point is, I like you, but I don't think you actually realise."

I feel like I have nothing else to say about my day. Oh, except for the fact that Madeleine Low ran. I'm going to flip faces with her.

"I'm sorry that sometimes, I feel a little jealous inside, imagining that someone else could please you more than me."
Muackers,PrissL.

Sunday, October 21, 2007
Haiz.

I thought we had something that day.
I thought there was a spark between us.
I guess I was too sensitive.
Or maybe you've had alot of those special moments with someone else.
You've broken the little bit of my heart that fell for you on that day.
And that little piece of my heart is still aching everytime you smile at me.
I guess the memories of that day will always stay in my mind
though nothing will ever come out of it.

Tactless, much, YOU.

Although it seemed past, I still remember it as if it was yesterday...
Muackers,PrissL.

Saturday, October 20, 2007
Yay.

I PASSED MY CHINESE!
Forgot to mention that the other day. How proud am I? Oh vair vair vair proud, thank you very much.
53.1%, baybeh!!

Went to marine parade originally with my mom, feeling vair out of mood.

Met my cousin and her mom, yay, some company.
  • Saw Jasmine,Kengling,Sherlene,AK,Melody...:)
  • Went to eatoes at the hawkeroes.
  • LiHui called for entertainment, and didn't appreciate my joke!

"what did one tyre say to the other tyre?"

"How would I know?"

"IM TIRED!!"


(and I laughed, alone.)


*sighs* Some people just have no sense of humour. Lol.

Muackers,PrissL.

Friday, October 19, 2007
(:

Well, I finally decided to give up on the whole idea of relationships. Yay?
Sick of waiting and everything, obsessing and disappointment, I'm letting it all go!
Man, being single forever does sound a tad depressing, but OH WELL it beats waiting all the time.

:) Happy person, now...

And I cut my hair!
Muackers,PrissL.

Key To My Heart

I had closed the door upon my heart
And wouldn't let anyone in,
I had trusted and loved only to be hurt
But, that would never happen again.

I had locked the door and tossed the key
As hard, and as far as I could,
Love would never enter there again,
My heart was closed for good.

Then you came into my life
And made me change my mind,
Just when I thought that tiny key
was impossible to find.

That's when you held out your hand
And proved to me I was wrong,
Inside your palm was the key to my heart...
You had it all along.
Muackers,PrissL.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Confused. Again.
My legs hurt like "whoa", so I can barely walk without wincing.
Confused. Again.
There's even going to be training during the holidays. They're taking it way too seriously.
Confused. Again.
Skipping school today :) Because it's going to be a waste of time, anyway.
Confused. Again.
I can't wait till school's out! Then we can really enjoy.
Confused. Again.
Sucks that we still have next week to go, and I'm dreading my results.
Confused. Again.
Muackers,PrissL.

Sunday, October 14, 2007
elle oh elle!


Mehs. Totally useless day yesterday.

Went to church with JY, she like, forced me to go.

"Why do they eat biscuits and drink Ribena at church?"

After that, we went to eat at the food court, still waiting for Rebecca to reply.

*black out*

I can't remember what next...

I think we went home, for me to change because my pants were like, so LOOSE.

So we decided to head to Vivo cause we might meet Rebecca, but turned out that she left already.

Screw the great timing. so we stoned at city hall.

Clarke Quay:D...but oblivious to how we were supposed to get there by MRT

We walked from Outram Park to Tanjong Pagar.

WRONG DIRECTION.

So after boarding the same train three times, we finally get to Clarke Quay.

Iced Milk Tea

Stoned beside the river where the wind blew my empty bottle of green tea into the river.

littering accidentally on purpose.

Decided to finally NOT meet Rebecca, because she got scolded by her rents about trying to leave.

mehs, what a waste of constructive time.

We had nothing to do anyways.
Muackers,PrissL.

Saturday, October 13, 2007
Grey

The ever-changing time seems never ending, passing by with every second lingering around like a memory, fading away as seconds replace seconds, until everything just vanishes.
I think to myself, what if I die tomorrow?
I'm that close, any second, minute, day, week, month, year to the day when my life would just...end.
Am I living it right, just passing every second by as if it owed me some personal favour?
Try to appreciate every second may it be sadness, anger, hatred or happiness, to remember every single detail of life.
I wonder-have I made a difference in someone else's life?
Sometimes the hours may pass by slowly, when you wish you were doing something constructive. Look out the window, someone may be doing the same, thinking the same, dreaming the same.
Another life. Oh how I wish I had another life. To start everything over again. To rewind time, to re-do things.
Then again, if everyone else gets to do that, memories wouldn't exist anymore. All will be lost.
Be happy with what you have, cherish all that you love, never let them go.
Muackers,PrissL.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Hotness

Haha. Just saw tilly's bebo, how i miss IGCSE drama!!
Funnayiest stuff, who'd like to see three hot idiots posing their stuff, advertising Lynx? muaha.






Lmao. All trying to be sexay.

Tis in the order:

Darius (the horny, permanently stoned one)

Mark (the other horny, weird, afro one)

Jack (the funnay, silly one)

Haha. Drama's the best subject. We used to roll around on the carpet and pretend to be jesuses. Good times. Though we all had to put on horrid costumes for the previous play, tis all good. At least everyone looked uglay together.

:D

Muackers,PrissL.

Saturday, October 6, 2007
Boredddddddddddddddddddddd

Ahhh. Missing the old times.

  • Meeting Madeleine & Kraven today...
  • Another day of studying. *sigh*
  • Can't wait for friday, when exams would finally be over.
  • Which reminds me of the fact that I'm absolutely dreading POA.
  • Aiyoooo.
  • Love you Rebecca and Helga.
  • Susan. I don't understand why I deserve that.
  • I'm all confused, I don't know who it is anymore...
  • Though, there really isn't any point in thinking about it
  • Nothing's going to happen.
  • *sigh*




Muackers,PrissL.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Alone&&Worried

But you put a dart, through my dreams through my heart, and I'm back where I started again.

Damn. I just keep thinking about him. Such a distraction.
Muackers,PrissL.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Exams suck

*SCREAM**SCREAM*
*SCREAM**SCREAM*




bloody four b. it was so a trick question.
Muackers,PrissL.